Heather, Mike & Maddie — My Friends
I first met Heather at BlogHer ‘08, during the Macy’s party.
Casey said, “This is Heather from ‘The Spohrs Are Multiplying. If you aren’t reading her, YOU SHOULD.’
Well, okay then!
I interacted with Heather intermittently on Twitter after BlogHer and knew that she was my kind of girl. The Cracker kind.
When we met at Blissdom, it was clear that we would be friends.
We both had preemies, we both liked to drink and cuss, we both just don’t give a fuck — a perfect union!
Our relationship was solidified on the plane ride home from Blissdom. I had to fly through LAX and Heather saved me a seat on the plane since I was the crackah-ass-crackah that got on the plane damn near close to LAST.
Heather and I talked BlogHer ‘09 and we cried — YES, we CRIED — about our darling preemie babies. On the gottdamn plane. This is when we bonded. For life.
Three weeks ago, Titi and I went down to Los Angeles to stay with the Spohrs for the 5 Minutes for Mom Ultimate Blog Party In Real Life (featuring Chris Mann) and we got to meet the illuminating spirit that was Maddie. (THREE FUCKING WEEKS AGO, PEOPLE. I was holding and loving and cuddling that little girl.)
Wrapped up in Mike’s arms when we walked through the door, Maddie and her infectious smile was the welcome mat for the Spohr household.
Titi and Maddie took to each other right away; acting almost like brother and sister.
When it was time for us to pack up and leave, my son didn’t want to go. Neither did I. Some people you just *connect* with. Some people are your Crackers. The Spohrs are my Crackers.
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Every time I open the computer, I am bombarded with purple and the sweet face of Miss Maddie Moo. Titi sees his friend and talks about her.
I don’t know if it’s a sick compulsion or what, but I asked him, “Do you want to hang out with Mama H and Maddie again?” Titi said, “YEAH.”
“Night night?” he asked.
I said, “you want to spend the night at Mama H’s house again?”
“YEAH!!”
I did not have the heart to say a damn thing.
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I am completely heartbroken and have been at a loss for words about this devastating tragedy. Tonight, I sat down to write because so many others have written such unbelievable tributes. I can do at least this much.
Tomorrow I will stand next to Heather and Mike, wishing that instead we were at their home, standing and playing with their dear daughter, Madeline, and not in a Church at Forest Lawn.
Tomorrow I will be strong for my friends. And even though I WILL cry, I will remain strong enough to hold their hands, and offer my shoulder, because I am the one with my precious preemie still alive. And they are not. And it crushes me. The weight of it all.
Our hopes and dreams and plans for our children to grow up as friends.
Dashed.
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Please join me tomorrow at 2:30pm Pacific time for a wonderful celebration of Madeline Alice Spohr’s LIFE. Maddie deserves a celebration. Maddie would want us to smile when thinking of her.
I’ll be the one in the purple shirt.
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Author: VDog
Totally in tears. Very beautifully written V.
I’ll be there, next to you. Except I’m wearing purple too.
Well done, V. Please hug EVERYONE for me.
3 weeks and an life changed eternally…
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So bittersweet. I don’t have words.
I am sick of crying! Make it all go back to normal dammit! GAH!
You are a beautiful cracker friend.
Don’t be too spooked if Titi and Maddie still chat now and then.
*sigh*
Absolutely BEAUTIFUL!!!! Totally in tears, at work.
That was beautiful.
I have no words. This just sucks. Please hug Maddie’s mom and dad extra hard for those of us who’ve never even met them and can’t be there.
Dude, for a change of pace YOU made ME cry.
V-Dog. You have such a beautiful heart. They are so lucky to have you. Truly.
-Heidi
very nice post. I wish with all my heart we could go back to those happy times and not know what the future holds.
Life is not the same, and it’s good to have friends that will hold our hand during this incredibly painful time.
Just want to say I like Adrienne’s thought: “Don’t be too spooked if Titi and Maddie still chat now and then.” I like that very much.
May you find peace in the power that a teeny little girl can have today…
The loss of little Maddie Moo was felt around the world – what an amazing little soul she had! We are all so much better for having known her.
Love you, V.